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I found this video related to the disorder I have - BPD. I think this is honestly very good information, coming from a person that also suffers from it, which might give better understanding to people than what some professionals' articles do.

I suggest you check it out, might help you understand me and others with BPD bit better.

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Before The Dawn - My Darkness
  • Playing: PWI
I found this interesting video which could increase people's awareness, so I decided to share it.

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Before The Dawn - My Darkness
  • Playing: PWI
I'm sorry for my long absence - I've been sick and barely remembering to do anything I should, leaving me to do the most important stuff out of the way first. Now as I'm recovering I'm getting back into things and talking to other people.
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Before The Dawn - My Darkness
  • Playing: PWI

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Kifa
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Hello! Here is some info about me and I will add more if you request me to do so.

I am basically goth, though many people consider me as emo 'cause of my appearance. I am more into metal than emo-music, so I cannot count myself as one. I have mental issues and I have went through a lot of stuff I am never supposed to.

I'm bi. I mainly play games, read stuff, write, photograph... I'm not into sports or other outdoors stuff. As a person I can be very "explosive" as some call it - I'm impulsive, blunt and I have my opinions. I mean nothing bad though sometimes I might seem rude. It's just a part of my disorder and part of what I've become.

If you want to know more about me, just feel free to come talk to me or send a note - I welcome everyone! I'm always there to listen.
I found this video related to the disorder I have - BPD. I think this is honestly very good information, coming from a person that also suffers from it, which might give better understanding to people than what some professionals' articles do.

I suggest you check it out, might help you understand me and others with BPD bit better.

  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: Before The Dawn - My Darkness
  • Playing: PWI

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ferrel01 Featured By Owner Edited Mar 12, 2015
People might actually still talk to you if you actually cared and tried to get better, other people have these problems too and you're acting like they don't and no one understands you, well they did, you just never wanted them to, you wanted to be some mystery guy with some bad history and whenever someone tried to help you pushed them away, you didn't take their words into consideration, you didn't care, and it's always been just you, you've never wanted friends, you wanted the sob story and pushed everyone away so you could have it, well you have it now. There ya go. And btw ROUGHLY 2.592 million people are diagnosed with depression a year, 
and roughly 620,000 are diagnosed with BPD a year, these are JUST the diagnosed people, so stop acting like people don't understand, you're no special snowflake, Kifa.
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Way to post bunch of opinions/statements that are
1) incorrect
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2) not considered from very many perspectives

Of course I know there are other people with similar issues.

Next time you wish to post something like this you might take more things into consideration. And coming here to post this after a long time of nothing (since I only recently could get back on here) seems rather pointless to me. Is this out of frustration because I have not responded to your notes?
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ferrel01 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2015

1. What part of this is incorrect?

2. I take into consideration every reasonable perspective that I can think of before speaking.

I took everything I said into consideration before saying it. And no, more like I grew up and got over my problems and seeing you have still not gotten over yours, you're still posting journals and this that and the other just "hoping someone will understand" Well people did. Sorry Kifa, not trying to be rude or anything like that, but I really think you need to grow up because there's a hell of a lot more to life than sadness sorrow and despair and sitting there dwelling in it does not do a single thing, and it doesn't look good at all, that sort of thing makes people look at you like you're pathetic. So no, this was not frustration or anything of the sort, more of a realization that I've wanted to get off my chest for a while, that you pretty much used all of your friends who you didn't even see as friends for pity only to wig out on each one later, then cry about it.

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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Mar 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
1. I. People talk to me
II. I care and I've got better (which you cannot judge - you're not inside my head)
III. Not acting like NO ONE understands me or other people dont have issues. Other people have different issues and experience them differently. Everyone are individuals, and the pain/stress they feel over their issues varies even though the issues would be same nature. And it is true not many people understand my situation from my personal perspective. Even people with BPD who experience other things more than I do and some of them less than I do. I do have couple friends that understand me well. I also have helped tons of people. You cannot really judge what I do day-to-day basis by looking at dA. dA is not my life.
IV. I am really not the only one who pushes people away nor do I enjoy it. You also know as well as I do that writing your feelings/thoughts down is often helpful. Nowadays I've changed my method a little bit when it comes to coping so I have not written in a while. And I do have plenty of friends who have sticked around, I do not believe that is really your business though.
V. Giving me the numbers of people diagnozed with X disorder is... absolutely pointless. While yes your numbers may be correct you must realise THESE people experience the disorders differently, have different severity levels etc etc. Also a person with depression alone will not have good understanding of BPD. BPD is not depression. I have never been depressed for a long time in a row, for me it happens in short time periods and after that it is something else. People with clinical depression suffer from quite different problems, while yes there are things that are the same. I am not suicidal or done with life because of pure depression. I cannot say I know how it feels like to be depressed 24/7 because I am not. When I get in that mood it is severe but I do not have that all the time.

2. Reasonable perspectives being for example your own perspective, psychiatrist perspective, random person perspective, counselor perspective, my friends perspective, my perspective? It does not seem like you have,
You "grew up and over your problems" while I have mine is a fair argument to you? Lol ok. YOUR problems are not MY problems, therefore you're not valid to judge when I should have got over mine. ALSO I have not really been here for a long time. You do not take in consideration how PERSONALITY DISORDERS work. These are not fixed within months. Severe cases not in years. A counselor student friend of mine had told me that it is considered such severe disorder that most clients give up trying to treat it because it gets really difficult and long process to do so, and that they rather try to help people live with the disorder instead of trying to *fix* it. And I am in the process of learning. I have made progression and I am quite happy about it. I do not snap at people so easily anymore! There are also other improvements that I've made that me and my friends can be happy of, but as with every severe disorder even when you get better, there can occur times where you kinda fall back to the worse. The people I've known with BPD are older than me and have lived with it longer than I have, yet their situation is not really all that better. My friend I mentioned is treated with medication and therapy yet she is not magically cured. I am personally getting treated though due to living in Finland I cannot have a real counselor which upsets me (we dont have mental health counselors) I am getting some help regardless. I suggest you watch this video since it seems you have not.
And my life has quite a lot of happiness in it, however again you cannot judge this as you are not me and not in my life all the time.
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christiahlove Featured By Owner Aug 2, 2014  Student Writer
Hello! Just to let you know, you've been tageed, Here --->   christiahlove.deviantart.com/j… by me! :D (Big Grin) 
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
D:
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Khaifer Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thankies for the watch! :hug: 
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem!
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1DragonKitty3 Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Student General Artist
:iconbowplz: thank you for the watch! :iconbowplz:
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
No problem :)
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FireChic86 Featured By Owner Mar 15, 2014  Student Writer
Kifa <3 I miss you my friend.
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Mar 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hi hi, how are you
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FireChic86 Featured By Owner Mar 19, 2014  Student Writer
good, and you?
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Mar 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Pretty depressed.
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Shadow-Guardian0 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Student General Artist
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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Shadow-Guardian0 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Student General Artist
Np, I know you like wolves so I dug through a bunch of crap to find it
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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ScullReaper Featured By Owner Jan 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
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emobeast1990 Featured By Owner Jan 24, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
hey, happy birthday (:
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